I hate repeatedly talking about my failures here but that's my life. If I mean to get it under control and maintain an outward facade of perfection, you all get to see all the cracks.
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After yesterday's bad food day, I feel uncomfortably full today (chant our mantra: "I just want to be empty") and there's a gain. But I'm pretty sure I can lose whatever I've gained in a day, and then if I can finally stop this pattern and get back on track and not have on and off days, I'll have continued daily loses.
Here's my new plan:
- Staying away from the scale again.
- When I'm eating, I have to count how many times I am chewing.
- I can only eat at 9:00am, 12:00pm, and 6:00pm. And only if I'm hungry. If I'm never hungry, I fast.
- When I eat, I can only eat 1 fruit or 1 vegetable serving.
- If friends call to hang out, say "No."
- Drink at least 2L of water every day.
- Tell my mother I have a wheat sensitivity.
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Today, I'm flying home to visit my mother and them I'm driving back up with the car to get my stuff out of my apartment since our lease is up. What am I packing for the plane and my visit home? My fruits and vegetables. They are going to think I'm crazy.
I am. But in my defense, my mother doesn't have anything healthy at home, and if I don't bring anything I'll have to eat nothing which will be suspicious or eat her scary food. So crazy it is.
Cheers!
Savory
4 comments:
your plan is am-A-zing miss, wish you all the best with it, you super am-A-zine super strong thing you
This is an excellent plan! Telling yourself you can eat later, just not right now, is always good for self-control, and of course, socializing never turns out well.
Good luck!
*hugs*
you need to eat more than that, though, sweetie. please take care. <3
If friends call to hang out, say "No."
i need to do that more too.
i like your plan
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