Saturday, June 6, 2009

A Bad sort of Empty

I'm in a weird place right now. Need to get my meds adjusted. I'm literally swinging between feeling absolutely nothing but empty and then feeling this darkness overcoming me.

Neither one is good. When I feel empty, I try to fill the void with SI, food, alcohol, TV, anything.

And when I feel dark, I just want to feel nothing again... to make all these thoughts disappear.

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In any case, I can't shake it, and nothing I say on here is going to be helpful for me or my dear readers. I have an appointment on Tuesday with my shrink. I've just got to hang on until then.

I'll be reading everyone else's blogs and trying to offer something other than pitiful or empty words.

All my love!

10 comments:

Silver said...

Aw i'm sorry to hear this xxx

BIG HUGS

It will pass.

Meggy said...

:/ sorry babe

stay strong and do what you need to do.

Ana Nas said...

I know that feeling all to well. I hope your appointment with the shrink helps.

Lulu said...

horrible feeling... I hope you find the light that is missing from you right now, and thankyou for your comment, i really appreciate your constant support.

hang on in there! xx

obsessed_ana said...

Stay strong. I just had to get my meds adjusted also. I had to hang in there and so can you!

Tree said...

~hugs~

Ancora said...

I hope you feel better.
Hugs.

Jess said...

Sorry to hear you're struggling right now ...feel better :)

Rachel B said...

Hugs to you Savory
We're all rooting for you!

Sarah. said...

Hopefully a chat with your therapist will help a bit. Stay safe lovely.. Hope you feel better soon :)
x

 
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