Sunday, March 1, 2009

This is it.

I've been so much stronger. I don't know why I feel weak right now and can't seem to accomplish what I want, much less control over my food. It just makes me sick.

This time last year, I was so powerful. It felt so good. I need to get back to that. But better. I'm just giving in to every little piece of food I see, and I don't even want to eat it. Potato salad? Please. Drinks tonight? Let's do it.

God. I had so much more will power.

Anyway, enough of the pity parties. I need to get myself back into gear. Here's the stats:

height: 5 ft 7 in
HW: 156
LW: 115
CW: 134
1GW: 123 (I want to get here by March 20th)

So. I have 20 days to drop 10 pounds. It'll be hard. But I think I can do it.

I'm thinking about some diets to kick start my metabolism which has been sluggish from restricting (, then starting a 3 day fast and rotating.

There's a lot I've got to accomplish in these next few months and I can't look like a freaking sea cow or feel so damn sluggish.

Anyway, I'm feeling better. I've just got to avoid that potato salad, get to the grocery store, and throw all that poisonous food in my house away.



Anonymous said...

Oh man... resist the cocktails!
Not only will you keep the beer gut at bay but you won't be out $20 after 2 drinks...
I always heard that models avoid the ABCs: Alcohol, Bread and Complex carbs. (I feel like the last 2 go together, but what the fuck, I didn't make the rules)


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